My heart is broken!

Last night was possibly one of the worst nights of my life. My mom called me as I was driving home from work and said that she wanted me to come by and see her. I told her I was tired and I wanted to go home but maybe I would go with Chris when he took Mattie to the vet. She called back a few minutes later and said that she would be meeting us at the vet, she had to take Duli in.

At this point I knew that Duli hadn't been eating very much in anything and she was found lethargic about a week or two ago but they had perscribed pain medication for her.

A little background, Duli is short for Dulile which means precious in Siswati. We got her soon after we arrived back from South Africa. She was my best friend, she licked my tears away when I was sad, she made me laugh when I was angry, she was the best dog! She was 14 years old which is a very long life for dogs...

Back to yesterday, Chris tried to make me stay home and he would come back and get me once they were done with mattie. I told him my mom said she would meet me there. He went to the other room to make a call and wouldn't tell me who he was talking to. I knew something was up. I asked him if he was talking to my parents and he finally answered what it was. I asked how bad it was and he said it wasn't good. I immediately starting crying... It was then that he told me she'd had a seizure. My poor sweet Duli! I asked him on the way if she would have to be put down, he told me probably... that is when the tears really started falling... They haven't stopped really since.

I went to the exam room and took my precious dog in my arms and held her and talked to her and thanked her for being my best friend and for loving me fiercely. We chose to keep her ashes, though we aren't sure what we will do with them yet. I stayed with her until the end, I held her paw while they gave her the injection and I watched her slip away. I am glad that she is no longer in any pain, but I am going to have a whole in my heart until I see her again some day.

Good bye my sweet, caring, funny, precious Duli. I love you!!