Surprise!!!

I would like to start out by saying that I have an amazing and wonderful husband. Not just because of the things he does for me, which are a huge plus, but because of who he is. I am so proud to be his wife!

Now, on to my story. As many, many, many if you know, this year my birthday is kind of a big deal for me. I am turning 30, that in and of itself is a big deal but my birthday this year is 10/10/10. How cool is it to have each number be the same and it adds up to your age?? So naturally I wanted a big party... I have been telling Chris that for a while now. Well last Saturday I got it! Here's how it went...

A few weeks ago my my Sami and I decided it had been way too long since we had made plans for a Sami/Mel day. We consulted our calendars and agreed on a date. Sami wanted to see 'You, Again' so we decided to eat lunch, go see the movie and stop by and look at her house which is almost finished. Oh and we also did a little shopping. :-) She asked if I was going to watch the OU game and I said yes and did she want to stay and we could order pizza? Well she said yes and so I called Chris and let him know of our plans. No big deal. Well we get to my house and there are a ton of cars down the street! I mentioned to Sami that someone must be having a party. I figured it was our next door neighbors as they have teenage girls. When we get to the door Sami opens it, which I think is a little weird seeing as though Chris ALWAYS keeps the door locked. I didn't think too hard on it because I had talked to him earlier to let him know we were on our way home. I just thought he had unlocked it for us. As I am walking into the house I see my friend Joshua right inside the door... I am thinking what is he doing here? I assumed maybe Chris has invited people over to watch the OU game. Then I see tons of others and it's still not clicking together until I finally see the Happy Birthday banners! I get several shouts of surprise and I am floored! I see my parents, my aunt, uncle and Lindsey, his parents are here from Plano and tons of our friends from church and a few from college and elsewhere. I am sure I looked so dumb because I am just staring at everyone. My husband had been planning this for at least a month! I wasn't expecting a surprise party but especially not one two weeks before my birthday! It was a fabulous day and my best friend Amy brought me the cake which I loved! The high heel was a perfect cake topper for me!

Thank you friends and family for showing me your love, kindness and friendship over the years. I am super blessed to have so many people who care for me, for us and we are ever grateful for you!! Thanks for making my birthday, hands-down, the best yet! Which is pretty impressive since I haven't had it yet! You are the best!

Chris, I love you too much for words to express, thank you for loving me and doing something so amazing for me. You totally got me!

Worst, best dream and other miscellaneous

This morning I woke up from the worst best dream... I know that sounds crazy but it was the best dream because in it I gave birth to a beautiful, happy, healthy baby girl. I had given birth without a doctor because she came so fast. It was glorious! My heart was so happy! The worst of it was that I had to wake up. Oh for dreams to come true! Part of me wishes that God was showing me what will happen, that is, I WILL get my hearts desire... The other half of me just thinks that because I am so aware of my desire that it is natural to dream about it. It was so hard to get out of bed after that dream. I wanted to go back to sleep and continue my dream. Unfortunately, that doesn't happen. I think what make it harder is that I found out I have a cyst about 20 mm big and anything over 14, they tell you to take a break. Dr. K gave me a pack of birth control to try and help shrink it. I go in a few weeks from now to see if it has shrunk. If it has I am back on clomid, if it hasn't who knows what the next step is... More bc? It feels like for every step we take forward to solve our fertility problems makes it worse. We are trying very hard to trust God and His timing... Too often though I try to take it back in my hands. I have also been talking to Chris about adoption. We are not sure if we are ready to give up on trying to get and stay pregnant yet. It's a blurry, frustrating line which is different for everyone. Please pray for our family and for God's will to be done and a peace for us as we try to follow him.
Besides the normal fertility issues we are excited to be starting a community group out of our Sunday school class. Tomorrow is our first night and I am looking forward to the group getting to know each other. Hopefully this will be a great chance to build deeper relationships and grow in our walk with Christ.

We are getting ready for several fun things in the next couple months, a few of them are the Blue Man group, a close friend's wedding in NYC, Chris being the BM in his buddy Dan's wedding and our annual Costume Party! My goal is to become better at blogging starting now, for the few that follow, thanks for dropping by, reading and leaving us a quick note!